i think it is time for me to put my heart away for awhile as i feel that it’s getting tired. too tired til it only felt neutral. impossible to love, are my expectations really this ridiculous? am i really that difficult to please? i think as time goes by, sooner or later, it will die off.

a false alarm yesterday lead great disappointment, a last minute change of plans although i kept silent. was supposed to hit zirca as usual it was total excitement for me because baby hasn’t accompanied me to club for ages i promised myself that this would be the last time i asked baby to club. but we ended up at ochid country club instead.

18th Nov, 1.41am. i am currently over at wenhui’s crib, til here then. bye. :*